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I'm not sure what to think of this, but I figured I would make a post to test settings out on while I tinker with the settings.
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Apparently there's this thing called Dreamwidth that is meant to be a competitor to livejournal.  It's selling itself as a community for creative types.  There are free accounts this week only, so I signed up for one just for kicks.  I don't know how I feel about it.  Though it is nice that it's not filled with the Facebook inspired apps that Livejournal is starting to get caught up in.  
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If making it implicitly clear that I am having a bad couple of days is not enough for you to realize that maybe now would be a good time to be considerate towards me like all the times I have been towards you in your bad moods, then I'm just not going to respond or interact with you till I'm out of a bad mood because you are a dumbass.
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Click the fake LJ Cut for post!
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 Let it be known that Livejournal mobile eats posts.  Now to attempt to rewrite the gigantic post I had made earlier via mobile in my attempt to save time before class.
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 I totally just got a job as a graphic artist/shipping person!  Wooooo!

I have more to say, but it'll have to wait because I have to get ready for class.
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So I had tried the other day to sign up for classes at Calhoun despite not knowing whether I wanted to attend them or not and found that Calhoun had decided for me by removing my ability to sign up for classes due to my graduation application.

UAH gave me a day to come talk to them: Friday, January 7, 2011 from 9:00 a.m. to 4:00 p.m. I still don't know if I want to go to it. I have to make this decision by December 1st because that's when all the scholarship information is due. :c I really don't want to go to UAH. If I go there, then I remove any chance of getting a transfer scholarship to any other four year university, which means once I start going there, I have to do it till I'm all the way through, or I'll just be wasting money.

If I did go to UAH I would probably double-major in Philosophy and Art with a minor in French and Japanese. I have to at least hand it to UAH that they have decent, if not pretty good, programs in everything I would want to study other than Art, while most of the good art schools I've looked at don't have any of that stuff at all. :/ I just hate the idea of being in Huntsville because I know so many of my friends that I'm not close to are going to be like "why the hell are you studying that stuff? You can't get a job in that stuff!" I know they'll say that because they've already been saying that, and some of them will be in my classes. Funny yeah? They take classes in stuff that they would love to major in but cannot financially justify majoring in those things and feel the need to push their concerns onto me to justify their own decisions. I don't mean that meanly; I know they mean well and are saying those things out of concern.

But I for one am not going to spend money I don't have on something I won't enjoy and think worth the debt. I mean that's why I've spent so much time worrying about this all. I don't believe in regret, and I live my life in such a way so that I won't regret my decisions later in life. I already have clinical depression; why give that depression fuel against myself in the long run? I don't want to kill myself as an adult because I never lived the life I needed to live emotionally. Sandy did that already, and I was left in the aftermath. No matter how much I reminded her of herself as a youngster, I won't become her as an adult because I love her too much and myself too much to do that to either of us.

I enjoy learning philosophy because it helps structure my mind. I'm going to learn it anyway so why not start now while I'm still in school? The French and Japanese minors are because I want to go to France and Japan both one day to study art, and it's impossible to do that without years of practice in the languages, so the earlier I start the sooner I can achieve those dreams. And art? I'm an artist, aren't I? Or at least I consider myself one, regardless of what others may say.

I guess I could always just go to UAH to learn Philosophy and language as much as possible and wait to worry about the art mainly for a Master's. Of course who knows if I'll be in a position to get a loan for a master's in two to three years, but I guess we'll just have to find out?
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Annnnnnnnnnnnngst.
I am so full of hate, and everyone is either working or unable to meet up with me. Why do I keep falling into a shitty mood. I'm constantly agitated, and it's driving me insane. My only break from this is when I paint, but school is closed today as it is Saturday. I need to paint. I'm going to go insane if I don't get it all out.
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ANGST ANGST ANGST ANGST ANGST
ANGST angst angst angst angst
Angst angst ANGST ANGST ANGST
Angst ANGST angst angst ANGST
ANGST angst angst ANGST ANGST
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I've decided to keep this journal updated every now and then just to keep track of stuff, but first I'm going to be doing some spring cleaning with my friends' list and posts.

UPDATE: I changed my username to match the rest of my accounts. :3
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Tonight, Dec 31st, will be a Blue Moon. The Blue Moon, while not important astronomically, is known in folklore as the day shit goes down and everything goes fucking crazy.

Today, Dec 31st, is also my last day at my current job. My natural reaction is to get nervous about things like this because I want it to all go according to plan and am worried of kinks popping up at the last minute. But I won't let myself feel that way this time. This is going to be a beginning to something wonderful.

Yesterday, as in the night of Dec 30th, I hung out with some old friends. It was pretty rockin. I forgot how well I got along with them. I don't even have to explain things to them; they just get it. I love being in sync with people.

I have been considering for the last month deleting this journal since I feel like I have outgrown it. I've decided against this since I still use this account to keep up with certain artists; however, there is a good chance that this will be my last entry.

Livejournal helped me get over many issues I had with my Father's death and various crummy experiences. And while I highly doubt I have had my last crummy experience, I don't feel the need to write them down anymore. I have learned to let go of things that put me down instead of defining myself by them. I can just live my life.

2010 will be the first year after a dozen of mourning that I can enter feeling happy about myself and where I am going with my life. This is going to be a hard, arduous year, and I feel confident that I can handle it.
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